02 May 2005
Personal
Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by life, the universe, and everything. I just saw the movie "What the bleep do we know!?" and it makes me wonder why I did not pursue my interests in quantum mechanics. I guess being a dentist was more important to me back then. I feel like I might be too late in deciding what it is I want to do with my life. I have always wanted to learn more, but there has to come a point where I start projecting energy outwards rather than sucking everything inwards.
If I join the monastry at chenrezig then I don't have to worry about putting out, literally. I can meditate and study and not be harrassed by society for wasting my life away being a full time student. But then what does society matter anyway?
I am going to take some time out at the end of this year. I am 30 now and have to set my coarse for the next 30 years. The baby thing can work itself in there somewhere.
I thought I might feel better if I vented my concerns about being overwhelmed. But I do not. It seems everywhere I look there are whole gamets of life teeming, and I will never get to know them all. When will someone just hook me up to the internet electronicly through my brain so that I will feel better? Perhaps this can be my new project.
If I join the monastry at chenrezig then I don't have to worry about putting out, literally. I can meditate and study and not be harrassed by society for wasting my life away being a full time student. But then what does society matter anyway?
I am going to take some time out at the end of this year. I am 30 now and have to set my coarse for the next 30 years. The baby thing can work itself in there somewhere.
I thought I might feel better if I vented my concerns about being overwhelmed. But I do not. It seems everywhere I look there are whole gamets of life teeming, and I will never get to know them all. When will someone just hook me up to the internet electronicly through my brain so that I will feel better? Perhaps this can be my new project.
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Hi Kim.
I got your email but when I came to your blog to post an answer I discovered that you had obviously figured it out after all...you have plenty of links now :-)
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I got your email but when I came to your blog to post an answer I discovered that you had obviously figured it out after all...you have plenty of links now :-)
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