DrKimDavies

...and I just knew this must be a dream. I immediately flew around the room and outside, superman style. My altitude was dropping a bit so I swam breaststroke style to get up amoungst the other parachuters and hang-gliders dotted about the sky. Suddenly I was indoors again, inside a tall building, still flying. But I was not in the air, I was in the building, actually amoungst the structure of the building, the scaffolding, the pipes, the walls and floors. I felt like a ghost being able to move through walls. I could hear a jackhammer approaching as I moved up. It concerned me that I might collide with it and become damaged....

I woke with a crick neck, and moved my head around to test the extent of the damage. The pain swept over my neck intensly and I had to put Felix down naked on the change table. I sat back in a big chair feeling sick and faint while Felix weed and pooed. I had to get to the toilet fast, feeling sick to my stomach, dry reatching and pooing simultaneously. I could not get up. I could only think of Felix sitting in the big puddle, and yelled and banged on the wall for help but no-one came. I made a heroic dash for my mobile, rang Mauro downstairs, and he came up and tended to Felix while I lay face down in the stinky carpet with my undies around my knees.

My neck is now braced up and I am coping OK. But I do wonder ... did the jackhammer do this to my neck?

Motherhood feels so right that I want to do it all over again and have another bubba, one day.
Owning a dental surgery that I am unable to work in feels so wrong.

This crazy world gears you up to become a professional, to work the system to make as much money as you can, to build your business to be bigger, greater, more prosperous. But what am I to do when Motherhood comes along and pulls the rug out from beneath my feet? I feel like I am an invalid who cannot perform my dental duties without shafting my baby off to day care. My primary duty is to be a Mum. Yet if my business goes downhill then I will feel stressed and will be forced back to work.

We are also considering buying a home, as the time is right for investing in the market. Yet stretching the budget even further is just one more thing I do not want in my life. Especially when I have no income. My best intensions ... thwarted.

Solution: Keep renting, miss the market this time, be happy, live life! I have done enough hard yards and don't want my family to suffer in its infancy, when Mummy is needed most.